dont know where to go

last time...so many things to do i hardly know where to begin...
now i already start something....already make a first move...
but i dont know where am i heading actually

what i actually want in my life...and what i actually need....

do i really need this?... what's the reason behind it?

do i really sure that i'm going to spend years of my life doing this?

i dont know...

invigilation

dari tadi kawan sekerja mengadu tak senang duduk menengokkan budak2 dua orang tuh. suasana sunyi di dewan besar ini melambangkan perhitungan secara aman bagi setiap insan yang telah berjaya menjelaskan yuran telah ditetapkan.

'i have a strong feeling that they are copying laaa' kata kawan sekerja ku

kadang-kadang tubuhku menggigil disapa udara nyaman, atau lebih sesuai sejuk teramat tatkala bertugas di tempat perhitungan tersebut.

sekali lagi, kawan sekerja menyuarakan rasa tidak puas hati terhadap kerenah dua budak yang sedang berjuang secara rela paksa itu.

'i think aaa....they are couple laaa....look...they even got a same kind of eraser' kawan sekerja ku mengajak berbual lagi berkenaan budak dua orang itu.

'buy one free one kot' jawabku dengan disambut oleh ketawa kecil dari kawan sekerja ku. aku pun sedikit kurang senang juga dengan tingkah laku dua budak tersebut

selepas break dari sembahyang dan aktiviti pumping, ku lihat budak dua orang masih lagi dengan selamba menjalankan strategi masing2 yang tidak berapa berkesan.


seorang budak yang mungkin lebih bernas otaknya duduk di sebelah kiri. kawan disebelah kanannya pula kerap sungguh mencuri2 pandang ke arah budak yang mungkin lebih bernas otaknya itu. ibarat pengantin lelaki mencuri2 pandang pengantin perempuan atas pelamin dengan perasaan takut dituduh tak nyempat-nyempat atau dah tak dapat menahan sabar...

aku kurang sabar melihatkan ke'selambaan' mereka walaupun pembantu rakan setugas berdiri hampir dengan mereka. aku pun menghampiri...

'eh! nih kenapa 'highlight' bulat2 lepas tu tulis besar besar nih?... kenapa letak kertas soalan sebelah kanan, kan awak righthanded. letak lah sebelah sana, lebih selesa'!...

*sambil tersengeh macam kerang busuk, budak itu segera memindahkan kertas soalan ke sebelah kiri dan langsung tidak lagi meletakkannya di sebelah kanan lagi hingga waktu perhitungan tamat*

do you think she'll come?

salam puan...

i've been busy wif the preparation for the wedding, till i forgot to tell u that i cannot come for the 2nd test bcoz it is my wedding day... if possible, i want to take the test, when can i sit for the test ye puan? and also i want to have private consultation wif u regarding this subject... very tough subject... is it possible ye puan? anytime u free puan... your kindness will be much appreciated... tq puan...


TOMORROW YOU CAN COME AND SIT FOR TEST 2 3PM-5PM DK1 . (FRIDAY)

do u think she'll come?

what i bring....

To secondary school (1987-1989)... beg, alatulis, buku teks, buku tulis, jadual waktu

To second secondary school (1990-91)... buku teks, buku tulis, (serba sedikit buat syarat)

To college (1992-95)... alatulis, buku teks fotostat, kertas kajang

To university (1995-1997)... alatulis, buku teks fotostat, kertas kajang

To work (2010)...

botol air masak besar berkadar 2 liter (nursing mommy should drink a lot ( i mean ‘a lot’) of plain water everyday

for the pumping activity: cooler bag berisikan dua biji coleman chillers, sekurang-kurangnya tiga botol susu kosong, spectra 3 pumping machine with its accessories,

big LENO handbag (mommy’s handbag)..it’s big so when go outing with the kids can bring also diapers, water bottle (actually three water bottle for the kids), handkerchief for also three kids

free bag from mrsclean (kedai dobi jiran punya) berisikan attendance sheet, ongoing assessment record of the students, past years questions, notes (and sometimes textbook).. why cant i have more ‘professional look’ of bag?...huh...

notebook (seldom)...



i end up walking from the car to the office looking like a big tree that has a lot of ‘garbage’ hanging out from the branches..... i wonder how often i had a backache...??

sampai pukul berapa??

nih u bawak anak you pegi hospital nih sampai pukul berapa?.. berapa jam?

parents with special need child have flexible working hour untuk uruskan kebajikan anak OKU

sila rujuk surat JPA (S) 1619 Klt.11 (29( bertarikh 30 Ogos 2004

to be or not to be

should i focus more on researching or teaching....

2 and a half research within 8 years .... is it really satisfying?

me as a subject matter expert... ilearn..blended learning....epjj..... should i concentrate more on teaching?...is it really satisfying also?

why should i care on 'satisfying myself'

oh no! what am i talking about now?.... ???

but really....job satisfaction should be satisfying???? right?